Jump Jump Jump
I didn't go back to Maris Stella for Teacher's Day. ):
I miss the school. I miss my classroom. I miss my classmates. I miss how we only had fans back then and everyone was fighting to sit under the fan after PE and recess. I miss the overpriced and sucky canteen food. I miss morning assemblies and listening to Mr Kwok. I miss Mr Kwok's messages. I miss the big ass banners that Mr Kwok get for us to inspire us.
I miss getting shouted at by Mr Koh. I miss running from hair checks. I miss playing poker in class. Most of all, I miss my teachers. I miss Mdm Lim, the two Ms Tans, Ms Leng, Mrs Tan-Chin, and Li Yan Hong cause that dick still owes me my Eclipse.
I'll go back soon.
Anyway, one thing really pissed me off this week.
History presentation. All no sense of responsibility one knn i.e. A.
KBYE.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010 ; 6:52 PM
Shitty Shit Shit
From now on, I'm just going to nod and say everything is fine because life is so messed up, it isn't worth explaining.
& I'm reading through my old chat logs. Funniest shit I swear!
Tuesday, August 24, 2010 ; 7:07 PM
A Little Prayer
You know, it doesn't really help when you aren't feeling on the up side, to listen to happy songs.
I'm just saying.
Anyway, dinner with Jonah and Yun Chou. Talked about loads of stuff. I like life like that.
Oh, and I just prayed for everyone that mattered to me, like individually. I mean I'm not gloating or anything la. I'm just sort of proud of myself because its the first time I've ever done something like that. Just saying.
I should stop saying "just saying" all the time.
Just saying.
Monday, August 23, 2010 ; 7:39 PM
Sweet, sweet melody
Just the feeling of calm hopelessness. That's just all I feel right now.
Trusting you and not myself, will always lead to blessing.
Worship was awesome yesterday. :)
I'm still humming the tune to "I'm Forever Yours" hehehehehehe.
Happy 19th Riverlife!
Sunday, August 22, 2010 ; 1:43 PM
Life sucks, then you die
Then again, I shouldn't be feeling this way at all, but really, why?
You know, I said I never really blamed you when you did it, but I think that's changing. I think you screwed up everything, like really e v e r y t h i n g. Even the normality is gone. I never had the intention to do what you did till much later, much much later, when I probably felt a little more confident of myself, a little bit more sure of the whole situation.
But no.
Things turned out the way they did because of you. All because of you. Even the friendship, to talk normally as friends, just friends, is gone. All because of you.
No, its probably no use trying to pass the blame around. Pinning it on you doesn't make me feel better. No, but I take something out of everything that has happened. To never listen to you or associate myself with what you do ever again.
Even then, it wasn't worth it. The cost of being able to learn this was never worth it. Never.
I would complain more, but I suppose its useless. I sound so pathetic. God, take me into your arms of everlasting comfort and peace. I need it now more than ever.
Thursday, August 19, 2010 ; 7:54 PM
Will do
Training was cancelled today.
Sorry Mr Chua.
Anyway, what Mr Chua said strengthened my own personal resolve. I had one, just that it was like really, really weak, but I'm really sure what I want now, and I'm going to go all out now, cross my heart.
I've been really lethargic in school. I'm going to buck up. Starting with my CSE homework. Now.
KBYE.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010 ; 6:09 PM
His name is self-explanatory
Quite a good week hee. :B
Met all my deadlines, one way or another. Like for my GP essay, I took Jonah's older one because he was rewriting his essay. For CSE, I finally handed up my overdue essay ... by taking Wei Jie's and copying. My homework rocks like that.
BUT I GOT DO SERIOUS WORK ONE K.
I stayed up till 1 last night to finish the CSE newsletter, which was due today.
ALL ON MY OWN.
It was supposed to be a three person project! But I'm not complaining!
I mean, my presentation wasn't good lah. I didn't even do my slides, but for that prick to be so openly critical of what I strived to achieve in one night, it just makes doing his homework not worth it at all. Fag.
Rest of the day was good! YC paced with me during PE for the two round warm up. I haven't lost too much stamina yet hehe, and there's training tomorrow! :D
Dinner after Chinese STAR with Rochelle, Roxanne and Jonah. & I'm home.
I still have a GP comprehension assignment due tomorrow. I'll just copy because I'm too tired.
It's really a wonder I managed to meet the promotion criteria with all the copying I'm doing. >:|
I'm just going to sleep early tonight hehehehehehe, NIGHTS!
I wanted to say hi, like to show things aren't like awkward but I don't know (?), but then Rochelle and Yan Ling were smirking like idiots so I didn't. Idiots. I still owe you your card! Sorry! S:
Thursday, August 12, 2010 ; 9:09 PM
Deit Eugnot
I need a little more luck than a little bit,
'Cause every time I get stuck the words won't fit,
And every time that I try I get tongue tied,
I'll need a little good luck to get me by.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010 ; 7:34 PM
The song of a sparrow as it takes its first flight
I tried.
I really did.
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... but my homework isn't finished yet. I've really got no idea what I've been doing for the past 4 hours. I did the first two paragraphs for like, I don't know, 15 minutes? Then I ended up watching stuff on Youtube until now. I'm soooooooooo screwed. I'm just hoping later when I go out to study, I'll actually get things done.
KBYE.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010 ; 2:04 PM
Oompah Loompah
COOL RIGHT?
I like school.
Anyway, my dad is PMS-ing because my sister lost her stuff, again. Somehow, I'm involved and I have to help her look for her stuff. I'm not feeling well, and my dad has the decency of a douchebag to actually make me get up and look for something that doesn't really concern me. I'm just saying.
Decency.
Of.
A.
Douchebag.
End.
Saturday, August 7, 2010 ; 9:14 PM
Indecision
Though the fig tree does not bud,
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen,
and no cattle in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the Lord,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.
Habakkuk 3:17 - 18
If I could throw down everything and be in worship 24 - 7,
trust me, I would.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010 ; 9:27 PM