Without counsel or consolation.


You have friends, but none you feel like pouring out your woes to. You'd just be annoying.


I've been listening to the same song for four hours straight. When you've really got no one to turn you, He listens. I used to think religion was for the naive. I realised I'm the naive one. I want so much to tell each and everyone of my friends what I think of them.


Just to confess.


To get everything off my damn shoulders. To find out what's been weighing me down lately.


I can't. It just goes against my character.


Give me a fucking box to scream into.


Saviour, he can move the mountains,
My God is mighty to save,
He is mighty to save.

Forever, Author of Salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

Shine your light,
and let the whole world sing,
I'm singing, for the glory of the Risen King, Jesus.

Shine your light,
and let the whole world sing,
I'm singing, for the glory of the Risen King.


21 days of prayer starts tomorrow.

I'm black. Black, black, black, black.


Melvin, my aunt, Yan Ling, Roxanne, Elissa.


I'm so unevenly colored my skin machiam Oreo ah. \m/
Lightning alert is gud.


I want to learn to play the piano. I'm damn in love with my blog song.

CHUBS! (Isaac) (Tan You Liang)

Happy seventeenth birthday!
Sorry for the last minute message
and arrangement of everything.
Anyway, we all love you chubs!! :D
With truckloads of ♥,
Yanling(:

ISAACCCCCC, happy 17th birthday! :)
Never really knew you back in primary
school, but hey, here we meet again.
Hope to know you better, CHUBS!
All the best for A's. Ace it!
♥Lots & lots of hugs and kisses
and love, Maisarah.♥

ISAAC YOULIANG! :D
HAPPEE B'DAE!
We keep ka-chaoing you, but very fun!
You go canoeing come out as 'zebra'.
hahaha! Jia You k? And webcam
rock :D
- Natasha, Suet Yuin

Happy 17th!
You're always getting bullied but
you know its all in the name of
fun and we still ♥ you! (:
Sorry for the lousy presents &
celebrations, I promise
your 18 will be a blast ok!

♥ ' Chels x. (:

ISAAC TYL
CHUBSTER!
Happy birthday!
Here's a poem for you
to make up for the
rushed celebrations :
He's so nice and really sweet,
He finds laughter in everything.
His innocent kindness just can't be beat.
In class, he can be found sleeping!!
♥ & Love, the savage photographer,
Roxanne.
PS: Hope you adore the presents. Wei Bin and I
picked them
SPECIALLY for you! =)

HEY YO YOU LIANG!
HAPPY 17TH MY MAN, FINALLY
YOU 17 ALREADY, HAHA, OLD
ALREADY, HAVE A WONDERFUL
BIRTHDAY CHUBBY CHUB CHUB!
FROM : BARNEY JOKER ( BASYIR )

HAPPY BDAY
ISAAC! ♥
sarahfadhuah(:



No questions asked.


To the people who made it happen;
@Yan Ling, Roxanne, Rochelle, Wei Bin
- You guys are awesome. One hour. Amazing. Thank you sooo much. It means alot. (: ♥


Blogger won't let it appear the way it's supposed to be. I swear the original looks even more awesome!

I hate it. Hate it.


I've already fallen sick twice.


38.2C


What the fuck.


Thank God Dr Poon is always around. I'm eating too much junk, such that I've coughed my throat raw and I've lost my voice. Slept the whole afternoon. Fever's gone at least, but I still can't talk, so fuck that.


Tutorials are more or less done, and there isn't anything new, so \m/(-3-)\m/ to that.


Make me better.

I love fever, I love fever.


Was hit by the damn fever on the bus home yesterday after church. Barely made it home. I slept the whole day under 18'C aircon, songgggg. I didn't complete any of my tutorials, fcukkkkk. Slept until 9 today. I feel so rested lah! Everyone in school rotting, here I am resting and enjoying good music. :9


Need to go to the doctor's soon to get my MC. Money again.

TGIF. Thank God It's Friday.


This is way more inspiring than Helen Choo lah!


GP is boring shit. I've been sleeping, or trying to anyway, because my classmates like to kajiao. Mrs Wee is a nice teacher. It's just the content. Dry ttm. Using the stupidest of methods to cover my face so I can close my eyes.


Canoeing was fun! PT was tiring, but the water training was awesome. Shared the T2 with Eugene, went five rounds, capsizing only once in the process! Wei Bin saved us that one time. I effing pulled a thigh muscle, I think, when getting back into the canoe. It hurts like f**k when I walk. My body is aching in all the wrong places, but it's been damn fun!


I can't say this enough. F**k tutorials.


Teachers can't stop piling them. Homework this, project that. Walao.


They keep calling me, but I can't go because school ends at five everyday, sorry. FML.

I'm exhausted.


I can barely stay awake in school. My body is aching like mad, and I'm too shagged to finish any of my tutorials. JC FTW! It's going to be like this for the next two years.


Breaks are fun. We've just begun with blackjack. ROFL@ROCHELLE. :9


Teachers don't have the word leniency in their vocabulary. Piled with tutorials lah, f**k.


and tomorrow still got canoeing. I'm dead.

Went to school today feeling effing shag.


Went for breakfast this morning with OG. Pearlie and Gabriel are teaming up against me lah, and the rest are following, walao. I have done absolutely nothing to wrong to deserve this sort of treatment! ):


CANOEING. F**k. The. Sun.


First time I capsized, the next few times is more or less on purpose already. You know the water how cold and shiok not? Under the damn sun, the water was second only to heaven, but it was damn fun! Canoeing then feel too hot, just capsize! I like. :D


I lost my spectacles. Capsize lah, capsize until specs drop, I didn't even know.


Die. I'll be more or less blind until I can get a replacement.


Finished training at 8. Exhausted, cabbed home and slept the journey home.


Showered, still feeling damn tired. Fuck Economics tutorial. I finish half, lazy do the other half. God help me.

Went out for Adrian's farewell dinner today!


Dinner total bill : $775.05


CNY is a life saverrrrrr. I langgahed into a damn pole when they were trying to bring me down to taupok. Later, Lucas nipple-squeezed me that made me go into a spasm of shock that it seemed I was break dancing. FML.


Videos are on Facebook!


I finished my Maths. I shan't give a hoot about Economics and GP. SLEEEEEEEP.

Proof that I'm having fun;

• Sore throat, check.
• Cough, check.
• Nose is clogged with mucus, check.
• Symptoms of a fever, check.

Awesome, it shows that I'm enjoying myself to the fullest!


Half my tutorials aren't done, it's three in the morning, and I'm watching Russell Peters.


"If you're a guy and you have hair, AND you got rid of it, I don't trust you. I don't trust one bit, you're a fucking douche bag." Classic, hehe.

I think it's just me,


but it gets fucking annoying when people actually compare you to something as superficial as sleep, and have the sensitivity of a nutcracker to let you know about it.

I'm stuffed.


My mind totally blanked out on my I seriously need to lose weight mindset. Eh, it's not my fault all my relatives are awesome cooks lah. Every damn house got food, drink and dessert. The world doesn't want me to lose weight! Heh, the awesome thing is that all visitations were completed today, so I don't have to go around tomorrow, WOOHOO.


All my cousins are either too young, or too old.


Went with mum to attend her cousin's funeral, who died of cancer yesterday. It was absolutely not possible to not feel anything, and it was just the atmosphere. I was tearing for someone I didn't know. Rest in peace. :]


I finally found out what makes my dad shit his pants.


Not showering after attending a funeral.


Of all things, trust someone like to him to be soo superstitious.
I still haven't showered, hee. :D

Lectures and tutorials on Friday are damn dryyyyyyyy.


Headed back to Maris Stella today! Managed to meet most of my teachers, even Mr Chong and Mr Koh! It was good to see them all again.

Mr Koh In school, don't want stay in school. Now when you're out, then you come back.
Me I come back to see you mah. You left a damn big impression on me.

He just smiled. Mr Chong even more funny.

Mr Chong In school die die don't want tuck in shirt cut your hair, now in JC so neat liao ah?

Mr Chong pajiao ah lololol. My hair is brown leh, and the TPJC shirt is so long that if you tuck out, you look like a damn monkey. Don't get me wrong haha. It was my discipline teachers that I wanted to see the most because I just came to realize that they're damn awesome. Heh.


Managed to see Ms Leng, Mdm Lim, Mrs Chan, the two Ms Tans, and Mr Li. Can let them see me wearing JC uniform I damn happy already. Can talk like we're old friends rather then teacher-students! NB LYH, take my New Moon, until now still haven't return. Walao.


Still, it was good to see all of them again. :]


Attended service @ Riverlife. Went early with Gabriel for some of his cell bonding activities! T'was fun and meaningful! Saw Renee Phee during service!


HI.


You owe me. I standing outside toilet waiting for Gabriel, she came and shouted a HI at me and went into the toilet before I can shout back lahh. Heh, but the people @ Riverlife are very friendly and open! Had alot of fun today! :]

The days are getting better and better. Just wicked awesome! :D


See what I mean? I'm pairing adjectives that have absolutely no meaning at all when they're put together. No? Never mind, I'm just being hyper. PE felt awesome! Did basic physical training for around forty minutes. It hurt like ****, but it felt good.


Chinese is getting more and more shat. That first good impression just keeps deteriorating each time I walk in for lectures. We got this really awesome somewhat motherly lecturer who was able to relate and make things interesting on the first day.


Then it just went downhill.


Second day we got this ah gua lecturer that had an extremely high voice. Today, it hit rock bottom. The lecturer had this >:(-I-am-better-than-all-of-you-and-nothing-will-prove-otherwise-oh-and-I-speak-with-this-damn-high-class-cheena-voice-that-makes-me-even-more-awesome face. Fuck him.


Natasha best. She saw me holding a highlighter, pointing at the screen every other slide. What she didn't notice was what I was saying and which finger I was pointing. Each damn slide was a WOT. I was cursing fuck every other slide because of the sheer amount of words there lah, and I couldn't understand a damn word of the explaination by the damn lecturer. Damn.


Economics tutorial. Miss Fu is slack and funny. Economics is just that easy. Can slack half the lesson on one tutorial question and I still can understand! :]


I think I'm starting to ask more and more stupid questions and give more and more retard answers. Miss Fu asked about my PPC, whether it shifted left or right. I gave an :O face and was like how does the graph shift left or right only when it's the whole thing that shifts. So here can shift vertically, here diagonally, here horizontally.


Hong gan. I was being serious lah. Whole class laugh. Nahbei. Teacher also laugh. Walao.
She explained, and I realised it was really a retard answer. D:


We have an Economics project, and guess who suaysuay enough to kena grouping with him? :D


Jonah, Yan Ling and Maisarah. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.


Talking about him, I have descriptive quotes right from the mouths of my classmates!
"I think his -taps head- got abit of problem."
"He is just wierd lah!"


I'm sorry I've been so negative the past few days. Instead of viewing him through those tinted glasses, I just realised that it was just his personality. He isn't really wierd, he's just a veryveryveryveryvery straightforward person. Heh.


Talked alot of cock for two hours with Wei Bin, Rochelle, Yan Ling, Natasha, Jonah and Wei Jie at the canteen. Heh, Wei Bin gave us a few insights into the school. He told Rochelle on which guys to avoid, and even offered to introduce some J2 guys to her, HAHAHA. He sold his CCA like he would his body. Canoeing is now an option, contradictory to my introduction that I slowed down canoes. :D


I feel like shooting the Econs lecturer. The make up lecture was 99% bullshit, 1% common sense, 100% useless. Felt damn shag during the whole lecture.


Decided to go back tomorrow to MSHS, then probably joining Gabriel at Riverlife tomorrow night for CNY mass. Heh, church is starting to intrigue me. >:]


I apologise for the WOT! I just felt like typing down every memorable moment of the day. :/


My own corner. Prayer has really helped alot this past few days. Whatever it was, just clasping my two hands together, closing my eyes and just thinking about my problems helped me so much. I felt some things that I won't say here because it'll just look like I'm gay, but I'm grateful. I haven't done serious prayer in a while now. Being able to do so, the effects are just overwhelming. Thank you. :]

Awesome day today! Made new friends, had great lecturers! Tiring, but it was worth it ehehe. :D


Went to SRJC to find Yi Da to run. Turns out, they had track and field training today, so the track was in use. I sat there for two hours watching people run, and I still went for dinner! F**kkk. Eat never run. While at Heartland Mall, saw Kelvin, Moses, Wymer, Preston, Chen Wei, Bing Hong and company. Haha, good to see them after so long!


Shooting trials are tomorrow, woohoo! :D


My days in TPJC are coming to an end. Pearlie is going to kill me. ):


Thank God for such wonderful friends. :D

The day started out f**ked up, ended with me laughing my ass off.


I seriously don't know what to do with him. You'd think dropping hints to get him off my ass would work. Nah, he just follows. Don't get me wrong. I'd be friends with anyone, even him, if he could be that little bit normal. Just that little bit, but he can't.


Playing the positive person, it sucks to know everything else is working out so fast for everyone else, while on your side, it sucks so badly. Kaede was awesome to have sit with me through History. Thanks! :]


China Studies was boring lahh. I think it's just the introduction. The topics actually sound interesting, maybe it's just the start. I'm getting too judgemental.


Finished the day horribly. Went home with that empty feeling again.
until I got on MSN


Gabriel said in CSE that I actually got in for choir. I checked the school portal, saw the list, and laughed. Laughed so hard for the first time in a few months. I give some people psycho into thinking I sucked at singing. A BODOH. :D


Then Lucas introduced me to Numb Nuts. Laughed myself silly for another forty minutes. Heh, life is just so awesome.


Tomorrow, things will get better!

Things already got better
"Dear Tan You Liang, I'm a committee member of the choir and I've called you but you didn't pick up. I'm proud to tell you that you have been selected as a potential singer of the choir and we welcome you to join us this wednesday, 3pm at the choir room. Hope to see you there!"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Don't get me wrong. I just can't believe it.


I need help! Choir or Shooting this Wednesday? :/

Had loads of fun today. :D


My first experience of a Christian church, courtesy of Elissa! Mass was alot more lively and engaging, compared to St Anne's. Differences aside, it was awesome fun! It also gave me a chance to broaden my own perspectives, so thanks. :]


Actually planned to go home, met my neighbour Melvin on the way home. Ended up going for lunch with him at WS. Talked about the stupid things we did when we were young, laughing like idiots. He's just begun working and I'm still schooling lah wtf. Learning that I'm in JC, he passed me a book compilation of Straits Times commentaries. It's pure gold for GP. Thanks! :D


Reached home at around two. Mum lectured me for going to a Christian church.

Why are you going to a Christian church? Why do you think I converted to Catholicism? No freedom I tell you, no freedom!

yadayadayada. She has serious issues.


Watched Naruto until six, slept until now. Won't be watching the match tonight. I'm changing sides. I hope Arsenal wins so that MU can stay top of the table.


F**k timetables. ):

It has been a slow day.


Woke up too early for my own good this morning. Had this sudden urge to go to church, which is wierd because I haven't been there in almost two years. Just went for morning mass. Just singing along to the hymns and praying in faith rid me of that empty feeling I've been experiencing for a few days. It felt good to know that I had a purpose, and that I was actually living for someone.


Went home and my mind totally blanked out. I had absolutely no idea what to do. Ended up watching Naruto for most of the day until Zhi Jun told me the timetables were out. The empty feeling came back.


I'm probably becoming too emotionally attached. I just can't get over it, as much as I say I can. While others are preparing to move on, I'm still looking back and wondering "Why couldn't it stay this way?". The love for the known and the uncertainty of the future makes it hard to let go. LMAO, I'm getting all emotional.


It'll pass. I'm sure.

"The last chocolate in the box is always the sweetest."


Today is Friday, our last day together as an OG. Next week, it'll be off to our CGs. Mere words can't even begin to describe our awesomeness. Like, AWESOMENESS. We've done almost every bit of nonsense retards can come up with. When retards come up with nonsense, you get awesome nonsense! Instead of grieving over the loss of our group, let us celebrate it's existence!


TPJC'10 OG25 BETA 万岁! ♥
WHAT AM I SAYING? OG25, NOOOOOOOOOOOOO. ):



CG wasn't so bad, but he's still damn embarassing. Wei Bin wanted to screw him over and anal him. I could see the hostility in his eyes. >:O


Mr Ali is an awesome CT, another plus point!


Since we can't go backwards, I'm looking forward to next week! It'll be the official start of the academic year, and I have an awesome class, so WOOOOOO. :D


To the awesome people in OG25 Beta!





♥ YOU GUYS.
;Pearlie, Valarie!
;Elissa, Zhi Jun, Muan Ting, Maisarah, Kaede, Jia Hui!
;Ishpal, Guo Hao, Gabriel, Kenneth, Jeremiah, Yunus!

Gah, the week is almost at it's peak.


It's come to a point where you probably think you know everyone well enough to open up a little bit more, if it could continue. It can't. OGs will be split apart to form CGs according to their respective subject combinations. It sucks. No seriously, it does.


Heyhey, at least someone from my OG is in the same CG! MAISARAH! :D


The future came fast. Instead of whining, I'm just going to grit my teeth. Ranting about my own personal prejudices is just childish. Sorry.


Remembering the good things while there are still good things.


PE today. Met our teachers for the very first time. I'm definitely in TAF, but the thing is that I'm actually enthusiastic about it this time. For my own good, I'll commit. Did some basic PT. Xinyun is scary, what everyone else can't do, she can do. It's hard to imagine how you can stretch your body to such a degree.


Played a series of card games with Elissa, her two friends and Zhi Jun. Cheat and Old Maid was awesome lahh. Q anyone? :D


When they went off for H2 Chemistry, Leon and I found Kenneth at the canteen. Finished up Economics tutorial and played more Cheat. Game cannot end one lolol.


AND FUCK CHINESE. LIKE FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK IT. FOR MY OWN SAKE AND SANITY, I'M GOING TO WORK TOWARDS AN A AND BE DONE WITH IT.


Tomorrow's our last day together! Any suggestions? x)

RANT. Only highlight if you want to read.
I got lectured by my parents yesterday. Ultimately, I know they mean well, but it's really fucking irritating when they try to get their nose in everything. My six choices for PSLE wasn't actually mine, it was theirs. My secondary CCA wasn't my choice, it was my mum's. I hated it. I hated my CCA because I have absolutely no interest in getting shouted and I find building structures a damn waste of time. Hence, the fucked up CCA grade.

Last night, I got a two hour lecture on my subject combination. My dad talked to me about how I was "limiting my path by choosing such useless subjects", and my mum behind kpkb, saying I should take Science instead of Arts because Arts is pointless and useless. Two times too many, I was forced to take what you wanted me to take. Not going to happen this time. My interest is in the Arts. I do care about my future, but I'm not going to suffer another two years because you think it's appropriate that I take this or that. I know what I want to do. Why do I have to justify to you why I'm choosing these subjects? It is ultimately, as you say, MY future, not yours. I love to study what I've chosen, so spare me some fucking space.


Tiring day, and school isn't even full swing yet. :/


Three lectures today. History, Economics and the useless "Study Skills".


I'm seriously frightened by the History syllabus. International History will probably be quite easy. I'm worried about the South East Asian component. In secondary school, we covered three countries, Malaya, Indonesia and Vietnam, and their respective colonial masters. Not only was the content dry, it was also complicated. The essay questions weren't that easy to write too.


H2 History. We'll be covering the same general overview, but deeper in depth. This time, we'll be covering TEN damn countries. As if it wasn't enough, we'll be covering international and SEA simultaneously. It's fucking scary. God help me.


Economics seems easy enough. "Study Skills" is a waste of time, period.


Played daidi & Cheat during the intervals. Psycho people at Cheat is damn funny lah. :D


CCA Exhibition was fun. Attempted shooting! Man the rifle is heavy, but fun! Really hoping I can get in. Walked through the hall looking at the other exhibits. I saw something that left a HUGE impression.


I saw OGL Pearlie walking through the hall with a softball bat swung over her shoulders, walking with a swagger like you screw with me, I'll anal you with this bat. Scary la. That time you ask us whether you look fierce, I'm giving a definite YES now. :D


Next week, we'll be sent to our classes. Sad, I'm liking our OG alot. ):


I was being selfish. I was so hopeful that finally, someone I knew would actually be in the same school. I shouldn't have pressed. I'm sorry.

Punctuality MY ASS.


They kept preaching to us the importance of being punctual. Mrs Toh can't say enough of it lah. Today "Study Skills 2" lecture, don't say late, she didn't appear at all. Talked for an hour and a half straight, getting to know more people, which is a good thing. Heh, thank the high heavens. In fact,


I thank you God, for incapacitating my lecturers, preventing them from giving us useless information, such that I may get to know more people, because as we all know, FRIENDS > STUDY TIPS.


H1 Maths introductory lecture. Fuck, I still have to spend $140 on a damn calculator.


Finished at 10. Bullshit our way to 1pm. I am like damn proactive lah. I learned thay Ray is Indonesian, Gabriel is one year younger then us, MSHS is damn tame compared to other schools, Puay Tong is famous in other schools and hotdogs cost $1.20 on Tuesday. Mmmm, hot dogs.


Facebook lied. There is no hole in the fence as claimed. There's damn razor wire on the fence.


Tomorrow is CCA day. I shall trial to join Shooting because I want to have a suisui A Level cert. Mmmm, A Level cert.





My idol. :D

B O R I N G.


What. I woke up at 5:30 in the morning to attend school for two lectures? I was probably in school for seven hours. Only two out of the seven was meaningful. The remaining five hours, I spent talking cock, listening to music and sleeping, but we did get to know each other better! Elissa (I think) came over and asked us to buy balloons. Not bad la. We kind. All the guys bought one. Friendship week jitao heap everything on Leon. Naise.


Eh, but it wasn't a total waste of time. I learned a few things.


[x] ODTs ; The government's way of generating new revenue.
[x] General Paper (GP) is a complete slut.
[x] The retainees are fucking funny.
[x] I saved myself $175 by not taking H2 Maths.
[x] Eventually, the enthusiasm will wear off, and I'm going to camp at the back and snooze.
[x] TV lied. India is the one breeding like rabbits, not China.
[x] IMO, Mrs Toh's accent makes her sound like a retard.
Ok, it might not be a cultivated accent, but more like a phail attempt at sounding zai.


See! I went to school and I learned things.


Finished up with school at two. Went to SRJC to find YJ, detoured back to WS. Ate KFC. I ate one piece and threw away the other two because of the sick oil. XY came. Chatted for abit, went home.

AND I SAW A DIFFERENT SIDE OF YJ TODAY.

BHB. BHB until cannot BHB any more.


See, I'm not in school and still, I'm learning. This is called PROACTIVE LEARNING!


I'm taught to prepare for the next day so I will be ready.


Tomorrow, I end at 10:30. Apparently, I think I can't leave school until one or two. So, I'm preparing to find the damn hole in the school fence so I will be ready to climb through and go home. No way in heck am I spending four hours waiting for the gate to open.


I like my school. They teach us things that can be applied both in and out of class.